30 Day BJD Meme: Day 30

Last day! This was a fun daily writing exercise. I might do more for character development or something. Most likely not though. XD

Have you ever been to a doll meetup?

Kinda. I have met a new real-life doll friend and we get together sometimes, but I've never been to a large meet. I'm kind of scared to, to be honest. It's easy to hide behind anonymity here on the internet. My local group is pretty much anti-recast. I'm a bit unsure of how to proceed. I guess we'll see what happens!

Hopefully we'll get a big meet together this summer.

30 Day BJD Meme: Day 29

Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!

Not a doll but:

The creek at our ranch:

And Minion is done exploring and ready to go home:

30 Day BJD Meme: Day 28

Post a crazy/silly pose!


I've shared this one before but...



And this one...

30 Day BJD Meme: Day 27

Do you have a favourite out of your own dolls?

heh heh...yeah. It tends to change though from time to time. My favorite is whichever one I'm currently obsessing over/spoiling.

Minion is probably my all-time favorite though. How could he not be?

30 Day BJD Meme: Day 26

Done your own faceups?

Yup, I do all my own face ups. I'm too cheap to send them out to people with any real skill, so I make do. Generally I'm pretty satisfied with my work on my own dolls, but working on others' dolls really fills me with doubt. I still keep on keepin' on.

30 Day BJD Meme: Day 25

Have you ever modded a doll?

yup! I've done lots of eye openings, and I did my first elf ear and fang mod recently. I also made a steampunk dragon, which you've likely seen. :3

30 Day BJD Meme: Day 24

What about your favourite part of the hobby?

The photos! I could stare at doll photos all day. I LOVE seeing all the photos people take, no matter how artistic or, er, less artistic they are. I love sharing doll photos, liking doll photos, having my photos liked and favorited. I like to leave nice comments on people's work that don't have a lot, because I know how good it feels to receive a nice compliment.

I also enjoy rambling, blogging, and teaching others about dolls.

30 Day BJD Meme: Day 23, a Rambling, Whiney, Rant

Is there a part of the BJD hobby that you dislike? Yup, the self-depreciation that comes from it.

Yeah, there's a good chunk of the community I don't like. Sometimes I'm not as good at blocking those parts out as I'd like to be. It's not even the confession blogs that bother me so much as certain specific people and the weird fan clubs they seem to get for no reason. I'm not saying this out of jealousy, though it is petty (I'll be the first to admit that). I can respect skill and talent, even if I am jealous as hell of that talent. It's the people who don't have the skill yet act like they're muses' gift to the world that drive me crazy. And just to put it out there I can admire skill even if it's not in my style, so personal preference has little to do with observable, technical skill.

I am not a naturally talented artist, nor have I ever been.  I can paint a doll's face, but I'm nowhere near the skill of the artists I admire, like Delicate Reflections, Andreja, and others like them, and I probably never will be. I'm a Jack of All Trades, almost, passable at a great number of things but master of none. Except maybe writing. I'm totally fucking cocky about my writing.

I am the only "artist" in my family, and I've never had any lessons or classes. I use quotes because I don't really consider myself an artist, because I don't feel I have the skill to call myself one yet. At the same time, I'm old-ish. No one cares about an almost 30-year-old and their struggles. The community is obsessed with the teenage "prodigies" and ignores everyone else. But that's going to veer me into discussion of my inevitable, early midlife crises and the cult of youth that permeates our society.

Everything I can do now is the result of over a decade's worth of struggle, trial, and error. It is painful to see that go unrecognized sometimes. and it hurts my confidence when I see others not as skilled as I am at some things get more recognition then me, to see them whine and cry and get nothing but ass pats and support, when I'm barely functioning and keeping it all to myself- and that's TOTALLY FUCKING PETTY of me to feel like that. I shouldn't feel that way.

I HATE that about myself. 

It's something I'm working on. Please don't judge me. It's a flaw, I know. And it probably makes me a bad person or at least someone who places too much value in the opinions of others. I've blocked the main "offenders" and that seems to be helping somewhat. If the temptation to bitch at them or about them isn't there I can start moving forward.

I try to be as empathetic and supportive as I can, even if it's someone I dislike. I may bitch about it privately, but I'd NEVER want someone to feel for even an instant what I feel most of the time.

Anywho I'm sharing some of my deep, dark, anonymous internet-stranger secrets, so Ima wrap this up.

Oh yeah, I also hate how dolls suck up all my spare money and free time. I think we can agree there. I'm also fucking sick of the minifee hate. Don't like it? Don't look. Want to see more variety? post more instead of bitching.

30 Day BJD Meme: Day 22

Sorry for the pointlessness of this particular strain of posts on the blog. XD

What’s your favourite doll scale prop?


My tiny tarot cards and the spellbook I made, without a doubt!

30 Day BJD Meme: Day 21

One doll you love, but will never (probably) buy?

This girl.

She's a Peakswoods Vampire Goldie. I've wanted a Peakswoods since i got into the hobby, but something always stops me (perhaps because they don't suit my aesthetics or ideas for characters, I dunno though).... so I imagine unless I win the lottery, I'll just keep admiring them from afar.

30 Day BJD Meme: Day 20

What is your dream doll?

I have all my dream dolls. :3

My grails were/are: CP Soony, VE Chloe (nanuri '10), Juri '08, and my F60 Nanuri A

I need to get a pic of them all together once my Juri arrives. Nanuri still needs her own body at some point. I guess if I had a grail or another dream doll to save up for that's seemingly unobtainable for me, it'd be CP If and Latidoll Bat Children Noa.


My incoming Juri (her current owner's pic):

Target acquired!

30 Day BJD Meme: Day 19

A least favourite company?

I'm not a big fan of most RS/5SD/BBB dolls. There's always a few that surprise me! In the hands of the right owner they can look amazing. In general though the aesthetic, especially of the bodies, just isn't my style.

I feel a bit...awkward admitting this, since most people assume the main reason people don't like those companies is because they are cheaper. honestly though, it has nothing to do with that.It's the same deal with most Volks sculpts too.

30 Day BJD Meme: Day 18

Do you have a favourite company?

I'm not sure really. There's a few I like. Some I just love to look at the dolls others own. I own mostly Fairyland dolls, so I guess that's my favorite company. ^_^ I've fallen in love with Migidoll boys so they may be a new favorite. XD

<3

30 Day BJD Meme: Day 17

What is your favourite item of dollie clothing?


That's hard to pick....hmmm.... probably this corset. :3 It reminds me of mine.

30 Day BJD Meme: Day 16

Can any of your crew stand on their heads?

Yup! I've gotten my minifees to do it, and my pongpong once. Granted, they were supported by their hands for balance.

Here's the only semi-headstand picture I seem to have taken though.

30 Day BJD Meme: Day 15

What do your family think of your dolls?

I think I mentioned this on the friends day, lol. My family just thinks I'm weird, but likes to see what I paint. My in-laws find them really creepy, especially when I'm changing eyes and stuff. XD They're all really supportive of the art side of them though. I just keep the cost of the dolls to myself. I don't want to deal with the judgment that'd come of that. XD

This would terrify them, lol.

30 Day BJD Meme: Day 14

Have you ever had a floating head? What about a headless body? (What do you think you would do if you had either?)

I have had a lot of floating heads.... a lot. Right now I'm up 4. I'd have 6 if I didn't have two bodies on the way. I'm trying to sell off most of them though. They're driving me crazy. Plus I just feel the need to slim the collection down.

I just always feel bad when they don't have bodies of their own. XD

30 Day BJD Meme: Day 13

Dollie shoes! Show us how many you have! haha, omg, I have so many pairs of shoes.

I have about 9 pairs of MSD shoes and about 16 pairs of SD shoes. XD I only have a picture of the SD shoes (except for the one pair Jack wears).

*note to self: update this with all the shoes together*

Here's a pic for now with some of the SD shoes:

30 Day BJD Meme: Day 12

What do your friends think of your dolls/dolls in general?

My friends just chalk it up to another of my weird quirks. They find the dolls themselves unnerving, but like to see the artsy-fartsy things. My family is the same. The dolls scare them, especially when they see parts laying around or I'm changing eyes.

I have a couple real-life doll friends, so that's nice. :) And here's a Danbo, just because.

30 Day BJD Meme: Day 11

Looks like this one was skipped, so I guess it's a free write.

I have learned through collecting all these dolls what I really like and what I just like to look at it. As much as I enjoy the amazing fantasy dolls, like DC and such, I really don't like to own them. I like little animal dolls, adn I like dolls that look like real little people. Maybe they're plain or boring. I don't know. But nothing makes me smile like a tiny pair of perfectly scaled jeans or shoes. XD I just love tiny things. Hopefully I'll be able to scale back my collection to really focus on a few and spoil them rotten.

My goals this year are to get each of them the perfect, high quality eyes and narrow down wigs and such. Once that's done, I'll focus on their clothes. I need to get rid of my old, cheaper stuff and replace it with the high quality stuff that meets my standards. Plus, Jack just needs better casual clothes.